I am DEPRESSED.....AND FRUSTRATED....AND a little ANGRY...

First I would like to apolagize for a spelling ,so please forgive the spelling...
When you read this title you are probly wondering why,so I guess I will tell you......
Lately I have been watching a GUNDAM show ,which I don't reccomend so I won't tell you its full name, and it starts as a regular show the main character(Shinn)has some sort of calamity in his life,Shinn jions the army,and becomes a gundam pilot..
(A GUNDAM is like a mech warrior)....
The base were Shinn is placed is broken into and some gundams and shinn fights them in many battles ,but never really is able to defeat.One day shinn is given some time off so he gets a motorcycle and drives to a cliff,sees a girl just dancing,and gets ready to drive away..Once he turns he hears a splash ,so he runs to the edge and sees her starting to drown.Being a pilot he jumps into the water to save her.Shinn saves her and gets her to a little cove next to the cliff.Her name is Stellar.Shinn doesn't know ,but Stellar is one of the pilets of the stolen gundams.Stellar is afraid of dying like if some one says there going to kill her she will go ballistic.Because she was an extended,someone who while in the womb had her DNA messed with to make a better gundam pilot, and she kept having her memorys erased ,so she won't be affected by emmotions.....Stellar doesn't know her memorys are getting erased....Now back to shinn and stellar at the cove....Shinn is able to get stellar to the cove and reprimands stellar for dancing so close to the cliffs,tells her that she could have died,and goes ballistic.Stellar ends up starting to go back into the water so shinn goes and grabs her by the waste to keep her out of the water because she can't swim.Stellar talks in a panicking vioce about how death is scary,death is bad,and I am scared of death ,so Shinn says he will protect her and that calms her down..After stellar calms down he gets her back on dry land and builds a fire for and searches for a way out that didn't require swimming....He doesnt so he brakes a crystal thats on his necklace which is a distress signal to his base.Stellar and Shinn wait and get rescued and stellars brothers come and take her back to there base.during that exp. Shinn and Stellar come to like each other.The next mission Shinn fights Stellar and hits her cockpit and he sees here badly injured.Realizing that it was Stellar Shinn goes and brings her to the ship he is stationed on for medical attention.It turns out the doctors can't help her ,so Shinn takes her to the enemys so they can save her life.Shinn meets with the comander that is in charge and makes the commander promise not to make her fight and let her live a normal life.The enemy comander says ok ,but brakes it and erases Stellars memorys of the battle and makes stellar fight again giving her a new gundam.The very next battle Shinn and the ship he is stationed on is ordered to fight a threat to a whole bunch of sevillions.The units Shinn fights has Stellar in her mech fighting as well.A gundam called freedom detroys all Stellars weapons and Shinn see through the glass in her gundam and trys to protect her but freedon destroys her gundam and she ejects but is slowly dying.Shinn lands gets to her trys to tell that she will be okay ,but the last thing she says before she dies is ,"I like you."
I summerized a whole bunch of this just so you know.You always know in the back of your mind that Stellar was gonna die once you started watching ,but I am a person that always hopes that what you know in the back of your mind doesn't happen.Which resulted in that I was depressed,frustrated,and angry when she died....
I stopped watching the series for the rest of the day ,but I could not shirk the depressed feelling.I knew I wouldn't get over that depressing feelling ,so I finished watching the series today.On the last episode Shinn was defeated and was nocked unconcious..When unconcious Shinn sees Stellar in his dream and stellar tells him he no longer needs to get revenge for her death ,and that she is happy and that they will see each other one day...Once he woke up the war is over ,and he is on earth and he meets the pilot for the freedom that he fought.Shinn and the freedoms pilot resolve what happend and forgive each other basically...
Now I am not depressed,angry,or frustrated anymore.
In this I haver left out a whole bunch of details ,so if you don't understand why I was angry,frustrated,or depressed It's ok.If you just cant understand what I have written because of spelling or you just don't understan that's ok to.
About the gundam series it's just by itself really depressing in itslef so if you ever figure out which series it is don't watch it.